Yesterday was another day that was more of a lesson than a triumph. I spent the day with my boyfriend and we were having a really good time until I freaked out over something when I didn’t need to which resulted in us both getting pretty upset. I won’t go into the details but it was rough. *sigh* I thought I was getting better but obviously I still have a long way to go. I have to stop letting my issues effect us like this. He reckons I’m trying to do too much all at once and he wants me to focus on breathing and thinking before I speak in certain moments. However he it was more important that I learn to see myself as other people see me. And sometimes I can. But sometimes, particularly in moments like the one yesterday when I get in a funk, all the self hate comes back. It’s very easy to focus on the negative even when the positive is staring you in the face. But yeah I’ll just have to start again today and keep taking everyday as it comes!